Malaise, or Terminal Cancer
July 18, 2012 26 Comments
Important update: If you’ve just come upon this post, or if like me, you revisit posts that for one reason or another attract you. There is a guest post here that helps me to plot the course ahead. It is here.
I didn’t really plan to post this, I often write things to order my mind, a trick I learned in junior high school. And then I thought, why not, there are probably a few others struggling with the same things that haven’t gotten their thoughts in order. Maybe it will help. So, here it is.
You know I’m a pretty optimistic guy but, sometimes it gets to me. I don’t like to talk about it for the same reason as I don’t tell my employees about all my business troubles. It’s hard on morale, mine and theirs.
I sit here daily and see the posts come by and like when man bites dog, its news when it’s something good. Usually its terrible, from speculation on whether the army will obey orders to confiscate our weapons, to FEMA camps, to Obama’s totalitarian dreams, to the latest EPA outrage. I usually don’t post the most strident ones but, unfortunately I don’t necessarily disbelieve them anymore.
And that’s the worst of all. I don’t necessarily disbelieve them anymore. That really sucks.
I was born and bred an American with the dream implanted early, and I have lived it. I never got rich (nor did I really care), I did what I wanted to. I married a woman I loved, she got over it, I never did. For the most part I’ve done work I loved and am exceptionally good at, as well as a rich cultural life, although because I love small towns, mostly via one medium or the other but, I had season tickets for the Lyric Opera and the Symphony in Chicago for a few years too.
The one thing that has been constant in my life as long as I can remember is that unshakable faith in God, who will never load me heavier than I can bear. No, I haven’t had the blazing moment of enlightenment that my Evangelical friends talk about, I have the rock steady faith of my fathers and have since I can remember.
From that and my parents flows an absolute belief in Honor, and Integrity. I rarely make promises because things can stop me from honoring them, and I will not do so.
I started getting my news from the Internet during the last campaign when I got totally fed up with the gruel served by the so-called media (including FNC). I’ve never regretted the change, although I do still watch (or at least listen to) FNC a good bit. I started blogging last year mostly because I was bored, we weren’t making enough sales to keep me busy, and that’s still true thanks to the government.
The blog, and you, dear readers, have been my (secular) salvation this last year. I have found amongst you the stalwart, dogged, determined, ruggedly individualistic, hard-working, and honorable optimism that built America from those first toeholds on the Atlantic shore to the awesome force for good that she is today. That includes you, my officially non-American friends, America is not really a country, it’s a dream, a dream of freedom, of liberty of the sovereign individual.
And that is why I can ignore the most strident of the doomsday prophecies for America. The old America is still here, waiting for us to return her to the glory she has earned. Will we do it this year? No, it took a hundred years of interfering government to slow us to this point, the repair will take time too. But I believe we will do it. I believe we will start the restoration this November. I also remember and honor our ancestors who quite literally walked across the continent chasing their dream. I do mourn the opportunities we have missed, and didn’t even know we missed. I realize I’m old enough that I probably won’t see the complete restoration but, I will, God willing, see the beginning.
And that will be enough. Thank You.